As an NHL player, relationships haven't been my thing. Shrouded in secrecy and specula-tion, they never last very long. But then that's what happens when you require an NDA be-fore the first date.

Until Charlene. She's like a firefly. She's elusive, and if you catch her she'll burn bright, but keeping her trapped dulls her fire and dims her beauty.

I caught her. And as much as I might want to keep her, I'll never put the lid on her jar. Not at the risk of losing her. So I've let her set the rules in our relationship.

But as long hidden secrets expose us both, I discover exactly how fragile Charlene is, and how much I need her.

We're all broken. We're all messed up. Some more than others. Me more than most.